New but not so new!

Hello, I have been responding to a few posts and did not introduce myself.  I am an artist living in San Francisco.  Was misdiagnosed as Type II in beginning of 2007 and finally last year fired my doctor and got a whole new team.  Was diagnosed Type 1 immediately. They are incredible.  I have gotten so much better and was doing so well that I didn't really recognize how difficult this illness is.  I was so happy to finally have a good doctor and went to charb counting, classes, read books, meetings and was on a pump in no time marveling at technology before I had any real problems.  I kept telling everyone I was fine.  I am not sure I am fine.  I am having a post diagnosis kind of sadness.   I check my numbers minimum 10 times a day, I carry way too many juice boxes and don't exercise as much as I used to because I go too low sometimes and too high other times.  I feel I can't complain as it has been such a short time compared to people who have lived with it for all of their lives. I don't know any adult Diabetics.

Does anyone ever feel like you are constantly saying your 'e fine when you just might not be so great.?

Hi,

I was also diagnosed as a type 2 diabetic. I then became incredibly ill and ended up with ketoacidosis. That was fun. And sure enough I was then diagnosed as a type 1 correctly.

And yes, us fellow diabetics get very good at saying we are fine when we are not. I think this is due to not wanting to be treated differently to any body else.

 

Sometimes. Hey you're one of my kind. LOL First love the last name(it's mine also). What do I mean by one of my kind??? Well just like you I was dx'ed later in live. They got mine right the first time. I guess being in ICU and DKA kind of made easy. When did all this fun begin??  Aug./08 and I was 52 at the time. Small world??? If you send a friend request you will have at least one adult diabetic you know. LOL Oh, also I am in Ca. also just southern.

Does anyone say they are fine, when they are not fine?  Story of my life. :)  I'm not a pwd but I have three young boys with T1.   When I'm at soccer games, or at school picking up and I'm asked how I'm doing, "fine" is easier than saying, "worried," or "overwhelmed" or "losing it."  It was last year when I actually said fine, and really meant it.  It is a long process.  My older brother was misdiagnosed at 23  with Type 2 as well.  He is married with children right now, and most days is really and truely "fine," 

Wishing you happiness and many many days of  true fineness!

PS:  I'm in the San Francisco are too. :)

Yeah, sometimes even after having for such a long time, its hard from day to day! But just don't let it get to you like this, this sight is a living proof that we have so many diabetics who have lived there life for SO many years with diabetes, and have accomplished such great things!

and i agree sometimes i say i'm fine, and im definitely NOT.! but have no want to explain, because its too complicated!

i agree with meri. it's always easier to say "fine" than it is to explain how you really feel. most people are expecting you to say "fine" and don't really know what to do when you say otherwise :o)

welcome to juvenation! i hope you find friendship and support like i have. this is a great site with fantastic people!

It sounds like you have taken control of your diabetes and have educated yourself to the best of your abilities.  Diabetes is a depressing disease.  Sure it could be a lot worse, but there are some days where I am just really down.  I tell people I am fine all the time because I don't really want to tell them that everyday with this disease is a battle for me.  I have had Type 1 for 25 years now and it doesn't get any easier.  Just when I think I have things figured out, there's something else that rocks the boat!  But I am not giving up.  I just try to take one day at a time.  I have so much to live for.  You have come to the right place to meet adult diabetics.  Juvenation has helped me in so many ways.  There are so many people on here who lift your spirits and can relate to just what you are going through.  It has been a blessing!  Sorry to be such a downer...just wanted you to know that there are others like you out here!  Keep Smiling:D

I always say I am fine.  Truth is, how can I explain to people how I feel on a daily basis, when no one I know has any idea what I deal with.  I also do not know any other diabetics, at all.  For over 20 years , I am just used to dealing with it myself.  When i try to complain or explain to my husband, when i just feel like i need to vent, he just tells me, if i really wanted to do good, i would just try harder. 

I get so happy those days when every number is in range and there are no suprises.  Rare, though.  Those are the days diabetes is not a big deal!!  :)

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When i try to complain or explain to my husband, when i just feel like i need to vent, he just tells me, if i really wanted to do good, i would just try harder. 

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Wow.  This almost made me choke on the water I was drinking while I read this.  That sort of comment is exactly the thing that gets me all riled up.  What do you say to him in response to that, if you don't mind me asking?

Thanks everyone for making me feel like I am not alone.  I feel much better today and will trojan on as they say.

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Wow.  This almost made me choke on the water I was drinking while I read this.  That sort of comment is exactly the thing that gets me all riled up.  What do you say to him in response to that, if you don't mind me asking?

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i would say "punch*

Thanks for your response.  I want to get a tattoo also because I keep losing bracelets and necklaces.  Did you design your own?  I am working on mine and hope to get it in August.  Feel much better today. Thanks

Thanks for your response.  I want to get a tattoo also because I keep losing bracelets and necklaces.  Did you design your own?  I am working on mine and hope to get it in August.  Feel much better today. Thanks

Kim

We have been married for almost 10 years, so by now i am used to comments like those and shrug them off.  He believes if it was him, he would do better, and he thinks critizism is the best way to motivate me.  I used to keep a log book and extra meter around, so when he wanted to check my numbers, i had a "good" log to show him and a meter to back it up...lol.  (he thinks over 120 is really out of control) That was ALOT of work!!!  Now, like I said before I deal with it myself and if he thinks i am doing bad, well then thats his prob, because i know i try (somedays more than others, of course) and I take care of myself the best i could!!  :)

Cynthia - you are a more tolerant woman than I am.  I think, if my husband made comments like that, I would turn into this:

I'm glad you've found a way to deal with it!  You know we're always here when you need to vent.  :)

KIM ANGRY! KIM SMAAAAASH!

You know me well, C.  :)

LOL...yeah, i hear from a lot of people i am very patient!!  Hey, i am a very optimistic person, despite what i, and all of us, have to deal with daily.  I believe that my outlook will help me out in the future!!  Sometimes i feel like I lost my hope, but i always find it again!!

I'll agree with everyone else, sometimes it is just easier to say that your fine.  It does however remind me of an episode of "Perfect Strangers" (yes I realize that is an OLD show).  Balki had gone to the grocery store and when he was checking out the cashier asked him how he was, and he went into a FULL explanation.  She just stared at him like he had lost his mind.  Sometimes I think it would be fun to actually answer the question.  If for nothing else, to see the reaction you get.