After beginning to feel all the "nerves" as I have been mentioning on here, I had a really bad time of it this week...complete panic attacks 2x and a lot of anxiety. I have taken anxiety meds since I was in high school and I was just about weaned off everything in order to get pregnant, but realized that I can't be off of them completely...the anxiety and "withdraw-type" symptoms were too bad and this wouldn't be healthy for a baby either. It's hard to come to terms with that. So, that being said, I am trying to come to terms also with the fact that I am going to have to wait a little longer to have a baby until my doctors find a medication that I can take that will help the anxiety and have the least effect on the baby. Do any of you know women who have been in this situaiton? I am sure there are many out there. I feel a bit like a failure at the moment, but I know that there will be a way for me to have a healthy baby - between the diabetes and the anxiety-med issue now - someday. I am only 28, so I really do have quite a few more child-bearing years. It would be my hope that we could get everything situated by next summer, but I am just going to wait and see. I think part of my problem is that I was trying to take way too much control over the pre-pregnancy planning (given all the diabetes prep that is needed) that it was taking all the fun out of it. I started to lose the excitement, which I really want to experience.
Any thoughts, input, words of advice, would be much appreciated!