Hi Dennis
i guess are ânever is too oldâ - but it was one of the last good things I could find about getting old(er). i still donât feel like i am âoldâ (despite the objective evidence) but this last year in particular, with all the earlier emphasis on age & Covid, has made me feel much older & more vulnerable in general.
I am using the Tandem with CIQ - it works well for me, saves me many near-lows. I only use the FIASP when I m going high and want to bring it down fast. I donât put it into my pump, I just use a pen I keep in the refrigerator to take and injection of 1 or 2 units and hope it works. when it does, it works within minutes, and can bring me back into range where my pump takes over. of course the pump âdoesnât knowâ i have taken extra insulin, but it is such a small amount (and happens rarely) and its effects are gone quickly, so it doesnât really mess up anything. I need it because Humalog still has very uneven time-to-onset for me. While most of the time it takes 15-30 minutes, I still have days where it takes 2 or more hours before I see any movement in my BG. There are also times when I have to stuff dextrose into my mouth because it acts so fast my CGM graph looks like someone falling off a cliff (times when CIQ doesnât help).
Overall I am happy with the pump - the Dexcom was the most important step in getting my BG under better control - even though I used to test my blood 6 to 8 times/day, tracking my BG with the CGM and seeing what happened to it in between tests, was very useful. I had no idea that some times my blood spikes at around 6am (âdawn phenomenonâ)because it would be back down by the time I woke and tested. So the CGM made a big difference. Then the addition of the pump with a basal âdripâ also made a difference. Between the 2 my control is probably better than ever.
At the same time, I must say that the psychological effect of getting the pump has been large, and mostly negative. Something I didnât expect. But having a pump âpermanentlyâ attached to my body with tubing and medicine 24/7 has made me feel much more vulnerable and âsickâ than I used to. Before, I took injections from a pen or tested my blood about 12 times a day, in an operation that took seconds. Now I am continuously hooked up and dependent on the pump working properly. Before, when I tested my blood or took insulin I was 100% confident in what was happening. No bad blood tests, no possibility that an injection didnât âhappenâ. With the pump I am dependent on a âback boxâ and have to trust that I actually got the insulin it said it delivered. Or that my BG is actually what the Dexcom says it is.
I have already had a situation where my Tandem cartridge was faulty (the whole box was). I only âfound outâ because my BG was going higher and higher no matter how much Insulin I took. So I started checking to make certain I was actually getting a delivery. Turned out the pump was making pumping noises but no insulin was coming out of the cartridge. After trying 2 more new cartridges I called Tandem, who told me I had a box of defective cartridges and I should open a new box (thankfully I had another one). If I had not been checking my BG regularly I would never have known and may have even gone unconscious & died. So I have learned not to trust the pump and that it may not be doing what it says it is doing.
Also, i must admit, having a pump & tubes permanently attached makes me feel like the picture of an old guy walking down the hospital corridor, his ass sticking out of the green hospital gown, and pushing his IV setup as he walks. While the pump doesnât look like that, (and i never wear hospital gowns ) it does make me feel like iâm sick and vulnerable, and it is there 24/7 (as opposed to 15 seconds 12 times /day) to remind how precarious life can be and how I am dependent on this drug & the software and hardware in the âblack boxâ to keep me alive. Before I managed to convince myself that I was a normal person who just needed a few seconds here and there to manage things. And when I injected X units of insulin, I actually received X units of insulin. Now I am dependent on software & hardware that I have to trust, & makes me feel insecure and my life more precarious. I now have to accept that if e.g., the pump malfunctions while I am sleeping, I may never wake up. (but the pump/CGM have certainly improved my control and BG).
So the pump & CGM have had positive effects on my diabetes control but also some negative effects which I have learned to live with. Also I check my BG very frequently, so any âerrorsâ can be dealt wth quickly.
Hope you are doing well, both with diabetes as well as COVID. Not sure where you are, I am on the east cost of Canada (Fredericton, New Brunswick). Covid hasnât been bad here - people are very compliant when it comes to social distancing and wearing masks. Also, the government here has been very proactive in shutting down things before they get out of control. There are serious problems in a couple of long-term care homes, but by and large there have been relatively few cases here. So while we wear masks & are limited in activities with other people, my wife and I have often felt like we are watching the rest of the world have a pandemic while we safely observe it from home. But part of us is still waiting for a surge that hopefully will not happen.
Take care, stay safe
Barry