Hitting a wall

So I feel like I have been very on top of things lately, diabetes, moods, exercise etc.... But today, I hit a wall.  I have had a headache for the past 4 days (I slept on my neck funny), I just went to get a massage for the tension, and was told that I have a much higher rate of tension in my neck and shoulders than anyone else she has massaged.  I hate saying this, but I think a good portion of this is due to managing diabetes and always being "on". Even when I was getting massaged I was hoping my blood sugar wouldn't drop.  I find it hard to relax when my mind is always wondering what is happening and if I have my supplies to deal with potential problems.   Does anyone else feel this way?  Along with the headache: my cgm sensor and pump infusion are irritating me- just to complain a little more.  I know I should be thankful for the advances in technology, my life is way different now than when I first got diagnosed, I just get tired of the nagging pain at times.  And done complaining.

I have felt this same way MANY times!! I know exactly what you mean by always being "on." I'm always thinking in the back of my mind whether my blood sugar is rising or falling, whether I have enough supplies with me at all times, etc. I actually recently almost ran out of test strips and had to call my supplies provider in a panic to get more. I guess sometimes I check my blood sugar too much, but I just like to know what it is. I tried to wear the CGM to prevent this problem, but I just didn't like it. I was on the pump for 5 years, but had to quit wearing that as well bc the infusion sites were irritating me too much. It would always come out when I was working out or get caught on something...

I totally agree with you that I know we should be thankful for the technology, but it's still something we have to deal with every single day, so it gets frustrating. Don't worry we have probably all felt like this, but we just have to get through it. :( I try not to complain too much, but I definitely have those days when I just keep asking "why me?!" but having diabetes has made me more self-aware and independent. Hope this helps!!

I've tried the CGM too and haven't had much success with it.  Yes it was great seeing the numbers and trends, but many times, it was way off when I would check my BS with my meter.  My pump would read 90 and my meter would read really high or really low.  I'm going to try it again in a few weeks.  I recently found out I have gastroparesis (another complication of diabetes) so I have been really stressed out lately.  Luckily, there have been alot of people on this juvenation that have helped me feel better.  Reading through some of the old posts helped me answer some of my questions.  Don't worry about complaining on here because we all can relate to what you are feeling!  Sometimes complaining helps me feel better (and punching a punching bag)!